First Quarter: Confession One

         

          Sometimes I feel like such a coward. I feel as though I let fear rule my life even though I’m motivated to do just the opposite. I’ve always been afraid of something. When I was younger it used to be spiders, dogs, any types of animals, roller coasters, darkness…etc. Now it’s the future, success, solitude, goodbyes..etc. There’s always something else and I feel, often, that letting these fears rule my life will only bring me pain, never happiness. Happiness does not last long for me. Even when I’ve got it, I can see the negative coming or worse I actually enjoy myself and the bad catches me from behind.