New Year New Me

          This leads to my plans in 2014, which is to not over think everything. Thus, having no plan at all. 2013 made me realize that serendipity is friendlier to me than my usual life plans. So this year, I’ll probably just go with the flow of my life’s turn of events. Anyway, I think it’s what I’m good at. Even with friends and family, I just always go with the flow. But this time, I’ll go with the flow in search for a constant. It doesn’t mean that I’ll stop living and not chase my dreams. Finding a life and myself, and fighting for my dreams are exactly what I ought to do. 

          In 2014, I am most likely to make more mistakes. I don’t want damage. I just want to break the constant cycle I was in where I kept my feelings to myself, pretended that I was on the same page just to please them, and been a hypocrite not only to others but also to myself because I was afraid to experience more sadness and disappointments. This year, I want to slowly teach myself to be brave in facing all those fears. If I have to get hurt a million times more I was at Christmas, then so be it. If they think I’m being awful, then I just have to let them be. I am not really changing and I don’t want to be bad. I am just realizing some hard stuff. I just don’t want to do nothing and be more confused. I need the rebellion Katniss did that brought change to Panem. I need to rebel against myself – who I think I am and got used to. 

          Perhaps life just knows great timing – both in a bad and good way. I was thinking about my faith and I was answered by questions. I don’t know. I’ll never know unless I’ll try. That is my goal and target starting this 2014.

Reflection Three: Thoughts and Observations

          I really have to figure out how to get my act together on here, I need a reminder that it’s not normal to exist in a parallel universe called the internet. Part of me wants to master all the intricacies and idiosyncracies of this place, shrink it down and make it more manageable so I can get out my message of getting rid of your smart phone and tablet, and to sign off of social media like Facebook and Twitter. But another part of me says that’s self-defeating, if you have no apprehension, no sense of urgency, won’t your message suffer as a result? But I guess the essential thing, and the main point I got out of this is, don’t get comfortable, don’t act like you’re part of a community or something, because all this can be gone when you wake up the next day…even more so than in real life.

Quintessence of Christmas

           It’s at all times been said that Christmas is a time for giving, sharing and forbearing. But, it’s precise for us to be thankful in everything that we are receiving and experiencing. Whether it is good or dreadful, we necessitate to be thankful because this is the means of God for us to see and understand that things that we are taking for granted.

          The essence of Christmas should always be in our heart. Whether it is ber-months or not, day by day is still Christmas because of HIM. 

          We are always asking for things to come about, why not make a move to make it happen and surely God will lend a hand.